Late Night Talk

 

I should be sleeping now to be honest. After a week of sleepless night doing assignments and stuff. One after another and I start to have this huge eyebag. But not sure why, I feel like talking here instead of sleeping. Talk of nothing but expressing what I feel like telling.

After this long period of time, when I actually start thinking deeply and thoroughly. I actually see myself running away from so many things because I thought it will be a burdensome but you know... nothing in this world doesn't feel like a burden if we look superficially. It is hard to look at it in positive way also but I don't know. Even in the best thing we like in this world also we will find some sort of difficulty in it.

-Harsh period will mold you into a better person. Only with one condition, not to give up-

"Macam mana awak ambil masa untuk menulis semua tu?"- Aman

"Masa tu tak pernah ada. Tak pernah cukup untuk kita. Jadi... kita kena cuba buat peluang dan ruang dalam masa yang singkat tu. Sikit pun okey, asalkan kita tahu yang kita betul-betul nak."- Me

Anyone can give quotes on par with Mahatma Gandhi or other great people which is well known. But the truth is... practicing it, is the hardest part. 

Hushed

 

Weird after a long... long... long time I still can't get the idea of ignoring people's thought. Coz if I did it will be just like I'm becoming someone else. Which will be more... exhausting I shall say. Alhamdulillah I finally have the courage to step forward. In shaa Allah, Emblem gonna finally be published next year. Of course I have to edit here and there because I still think my way of writing is childish but trying to look matured can as well backfired sometimes, na? For now I just need to go for it and try to make peace with my mind. Which is extremely difficult for me ofc since myself is my own nemesis. Don't ask me why. I don't know why I feel that way too. 

-Life is hard, but trying to cope with myself is harder-

"Mari kita tenung balik masa lalu kita, kalau dulu apa yang awak pernah minta dekat Allah?"- Emcee Usrah

"Duit." -A

"Rumah besar." -B

"Straight A dalam exam." -C

"Dapat husband handsome and baik" -D

"Kaya." -E

Dan berikutnya sampailah mata masing-masing tertala dekat aku apabila sampai giliran aku. Dengan muka seposen aku bagitahu seikhlas hati, "Ketenangan"

Satu dewan tengok aku macam kepala aku keluar tanduk. Tapi memang agak pelik sebenarnya untuk budak-budak bawah umur mengharapkan benda tu.

Books and life taught me a lot and of course the mind works the way it should be as well but snce I am a kind of person who is emotionally dominant. So people just can't imagine how much it takes to stay at ease and calm for someone like me