Weird after a long... long... long time I still can't get the idea of ignoring people's thought. Coz if I did it will be just like I'm becoming someone else. Which will be more... exhausting I shall say. Alhamdulillah I finally have the courage to step forward. In shaa Allah, Emblem gonna finally be published next year. Of course I have to edit here and there because I still think my way of writing is childish but trying to look matured can as well backfired sometimes, na? For now I just need to go for it and try to make peace with my mind. Which is extremely difficult for me ofc since myself is my own nemesis. Don't ask me why. I don't know why I feel that way too.
-Life is hard, but trying to cope with myself is harder-
"Mari kita tenung balik masa lalu kita, kalau dulu apa yang awak pernah minta dekat Allah?"- Emcee Usrah
"Duit." -A
"Rumah besar." -B
"Straight A dalam exam." -C
"Dapat husband handsome and baik" -D
"Kaya." -E
Dan berikutnya sampailah mata masing-masing tertala dekat aku apabila sampai giliran aku. Dengan muka seposen aku bagitahu seikhlas hati, "Ketenangan"
Satu dewan tengok aku macam kepala aku keluar tanduk. Tapi memang agak pelik sebenarnya untuk budak-budak bawah umur mengharapkan benda tu.
Books and life taught me a lot and of course the mind works the way it should be as well but snce I am a kind of person who is emotionally dominant. So people just can't imagine how much it takes to stay at ease and calm for someone like me
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